★ 1/5/26
Changed the song on the website. Dire Dire Docks got a lil boring. Hopefully the length wont cause lag x3c
★ 1/4/26
Its already day 4 of 2026. Ive performed some more live music lately, and thats been a very humbling experience x3 I know im a good musician, but now I'm playing against some real big-wigs, so that means I gotta step up!
I gotta prepare for next semester of school, organize my discord list, and other chores i gotta get done. The hard part about having so manby hobbies, is that you always wanna improve on all of them at once XD I wanna practice my guitar, my graffiti art (pieces and can control), furry art, and piano right now. And i gotta update my personal IRL website too, a complete stylization re-haul. I think imma add myself to some more webrings too. I'll just paste them here:
- https://qtbeans.neocities.org/artistsonline
- https://nicois.gay/amiga/members
★ 12/31/25
Welp, its that time of year again! Going into the big 26. I hope the great meme reset happens and there'll be no more 67 jokes ^^
In all serious though, I dont have high hopes for next year. I guess thats just the nihilism in me talking. 2025 has been an eventful year for me, and i do sincerely hope 2026 is alot more stable and fruitful than 2025. I hope for better finances, better mental clarity, and a big dick boyfriend who's hella cute >w>.
Today, i bought hella alcohol and ammunition for the celebration, and im gonna have a great night tonight!
Happy new years to everyone!! Dont drive drunk >:O
★ 12/28/25
Gonna add an '/art' page to host all of my self-made art. I also changed the song again, created a frutiger aero theme for the landing page, made it toggle-able, and added more blinkies on the bottom too :3
★ 12/28/25
I kinda finished my landing page ^^ Its still a work in progress and nothing is set in stone. I think I am finished with the formatting, im just workign on style and looks for now. I wanna add other elements into it, and i might possibly change the theme too. I also added the changes into my neocities site as well. Im probably gonna add more blinkies at the bottom. Im also probably gonna add a button on the home page to switch from the current theme, to a frutiger aero theme. I know for new-commers, the sudden switch in asthetic might be jarring nwn. As for this info page, I wanna add more, but idk what yet!! Pls gimmie some suggestions folks 🥺
I swear the more i work on this website the more i realize that im never gonna be satisfied. Itll probably never be truly complete x3c
★ 12/27/25
Recently went on a 1 day trip to San Antonio to meet up with a friend and lets just say we had a good 'bonding experience x3' .
I didn't get any present this year because of our family's financial situation, but I still had a good time! Christmas isnt about the presents anyway.
I also got to perform live music at this venue, went to the gun range, and even got to do some Graff, which I haven't done in a long time x3. Life's been really hectic and busy lately and its kind hard keeping track of everything thats been happening.
Also The website is back to the old Frutiger Aero theme with a different wallpaper! Im Gonna Update my neocities site to reflect the changes soon enough
★ 12/22/25
Working on my landing page aka the home page aka extocine.com/
Right now im working on the layout, and then imma add in the various elemetns to make it pretty. Idk what theme I wanna go for yet, but we'll see! If you wanna see my actual IRL Progress click here!
★ 12/18/2025
Recently gotten out of school, met some cool new people (Im looking at you mocha2), and caught the 'bug' with Linux ricing again. Right now im setting up my new terminal to look all sexy, might consider switching from nano to neovim, and switching from DWM to hyperland or something. Trying to maximize my set up for Peak HTML TUI efficiency. Ive got absolutely no money for this Christmas season, but hopefully itll still be fun to enjoy ^^
As for inner me, life has still been feeling pretty meh lately, not black, not white, just awash with grey and neutrality. Usually the holidays are a time of warmth and excitement for me, but not this year for some reason. Oh well, regardless the show must go on!!
★ 12/8/2025
Mature Content Warning (hence the spoiler):
penis
★ 12/3/2025
extocine.com but christmas themed!! Changed the background images, cursour effects, and colors.
★ 12/3/25
If youre ever overwhelmed with hella shit on ur mind, make a chart!! I love to use Minder to help organize the complicated ass mess that is my head. I made a chart to map out Everything that is going on inside my head, and it allows me to tackle one issue at a time. Instead of dealing with 1000 problems at once, im dealing with 100 bite-sized problems i can tackle at my own pace.
(I dont care that this image is bitcrunched to hell, you get the point x3)
★ 12/2/25
I just had the idea of dedicating 1 day a week or so to do nothing but hone in my craft in a certain subject. Whether that be making charts of my thoughts, practicing musical scales, drawing a few dozen times, or learning a few dozen words in a new language, I can slowly creep towards perfection. Even Einstein took years to get to his level, im not gonna solve the world in a day, and i shouldn't beat myself up for not being able to solve everything at once.After binging philosophy videos on youtube, doing alot of self reflection, and talking to a person I hold dear to me, I've made the realization that everything that has ever happened to me is my fault, I am smart enough to solve these questions on my own, and if im not, i have the strength to find someone who can. Bad traits and negative feelings, trauma, all of it is in my control, i am the master of my universe so to speak. I think imma start making charts again to help organize the complicated mess that is my brain. I know the root of all my problems is the brain mind dichotomy, the biological machine vs the soul and ego that is me. Once i have complete mastery of that, ill literally be unstoppable. I really hope this newfound hope will persist ^w^
★ 12/1/25
Ive been noticing life has been really gray for me lately. I got the job ive been searching for which is nice, but I've emotionally been struggling. I still feel lonely despite being surrounded by friends who "supposedly care about me". Nobody it seems wants to talk to me or spend time with me, I feel stagnant like im wasting my life away, and that i have no one I can relate to. Even the holiday season has lost all its magic and I'm still somehow Still fawning over a particular person (you know who you are), I thought ive shaken that off but i guess not xD
Wish me luck that I have the drive to give my life some desperately needed warmth, to find the people/person i need, to persue my dreams, and to study my philosphy more thoroughly enough to dig myself out of this nihilistic depression.
Anywayyy- I feel like i wanna add some more features to my website but idk what yet. Guess im gonna have to go on a neocity rabbit hole to get some inspiration ^^
★ 11/5/25
Adding myself to a webring and made a gif for myself 
★ 11/03/25
This site is gonna be a perpetual work in progress I see x3
Every time I browse other websites I get the urge to incorporate cool shit into this one. Tonight i think imma work on adding cursour effects, a new song, and possible other goodies. I also wanna figure out how to set something up where whenever I update my self-hosted site, tne neocities version also gets the same update
★ 10/30/25
On hallow's eve, decided to add more to the website! Finally added a proper blog section, and the guestbook below for people to stop by and say something (yes i read all the messages). Slowly building my lil slice of heaven on this godforsaken internet that we have in the 2020's.
★ 08/26/25
Still dealing with Nihilism, Procrastination and Finances. I'm in a better state of mind and am currently taking steps to further improve my psyche. Still learning more on a personal philosophical journey... Still updating the website! Just added a files page, a discord page and a secret ad page too >w>
★ 08/02/25
no im not okay
★ 7/21/25
I decided to revamp my website to fit a 2000's frutiger aero theme after taking inspiration from several neocities! (This website is completely self hosted btw, Here's the link to the neocities version).
If you wanna see what the origial page looked like, click here
